End of a theme song era

I just found this draft that I hadn't even remembered starting. So I will transport myself back to early November.

Anyone who watched Ally McBeal knows the concept of the theme song. A song that you can sing to yourself, or play for yourself, when you're feeling down, that sort of depicts where you are in your life but also (and this is key) perks you up.

I've had a few over the years. They've changed as circumstances, or attitudes, or I have changed. For the last several years it's been Under Pressure by Queen. An extremely fitting song during the season of its inauguration as My Theme Song, during a time of complete and total swampedness at work - not just for me, but for many of my coworkers as well. Also an extremely fitting song as it has that necessary theme song quality whereby strictly by listening to, and dancing to, this song, all stress and concern is relieved (even if only for a short time).

I took what I needed from it and ignored the parts that didn't quite fit.

Early November I learned of a rather substantial reorganization at work. That weekend, I had the computer randomly flipping through iTunes. Under Pressure played. I wasn't really paying attention as I continued my chores. When, all of a sudden, a line that never really fit with my general theme before, suddenly became crystal clear in all the background noise. And cemented the notion that a chapter had closed. And this theme song had run its course. Performed its duty. (And was, in fact, the perfect, complete theme song - even signally the end)

This is our last dance.

Cut through like a knife. Was so true. Aided in the closure.

And perhaps it's fitting that I accidently found this draft today (in Jan 2008), of all days. For today, I had planned a lunch outing with all the "old department" - nothing fancy. Just missed a couple of the guys who left and figured we should go for lunch. Others were interested and joined as well.

The funny thing is, they weren't just interested. They were excited (in a reserved, subtle way, given the group). And suddenly, a group that would be impossible about trying to get all together before the big switch, was loving the idea of meeting for a quick lunch. As we all move on in our new directions, it seems we're all missing each other more than some of us maybe thought they would, or would have admitted they would. Which I think is very sweet.

And as for the new theme song? Still open. Right now I'm finding some token inspiration and motivation in Kid Rock (yes, I realize that's a bit "not right" - and I say that as a Kid Rock fan :p) And some day, when it's needed, the next theme song will find me. Because that's how it works. We don't find them. They find us.

Guilty Pleasures

Right now, I canNOT get enough of Fergie's "Clumsy". Like, all of a sudden. In the last 48 hours.

I can barely look myself in the mirror. :p Luckily, when I'm dancing to it in my living room, there is no mirror in the vicinity.