June 18, 2006

Everything in its own time.

(I've been meaning to write this post for awhile now. Like everything else here, it apparently needed to come at its own time)

Over a year ago, when I took on a new position at work, I didn't really have much time to cross-train with the person I was replacing. We covered the main topics/issues and I jumped in, head first, to figure out the rest - classic baptism by fire.

About 5-6 weeks into the new position I noticed a small key hanging from a pushpin on my cube wall. (Yes, it took me that long to notice it and wonder about it - I spent VERY little of my first 6 weeks - well, 3 months really, at my desk) I tried the key in my desk. Didn't work. I put it back on the wall, deciding I would figure it out later.

Over the next several months, as I worked through the massive learning curve, the key - and its unknown origin - became something I looked fondly on. It somehow represented a calmer time in the future. A time when huger issues would be resolved and I would be able to ponder its purpose. More importantly, it represented the fact that I didn't need to know *everything* right now. I decided to leave it hanging there, a little mystery in my day, and just await the moment its use would be revealed to me.

That day came this past January (about 9 months into the position - around the same time I finally moved into my desk - but that's another post). The coworker I sit next to made a comment one day about a spare desk key. Turns out he and the person I stepped in for had swapped spare keys for safe-keeping. My mystery key was the key to his desk.

In a lot of ways January was a bit of a turning point for me. I had finally learned the purpose of the key and it was at just the proper moment.

Likewise, shortly after I bought my house, I was in a conversation about weed eaters. I didn't own one at the time and just the thought of having one made me feel suffocated. Somehow I could commit to an entire house, but a weedeater was like a ball and chain. It was far too settled and domesticated. About 4 weeks ago, (again about 9 months after I bought the house - this timing is a weird coincidence) as I was cutting the grass, I realized I wanted a weedeater. I now own a weedeater. And instead of feeling suffocated, I love how what it does for my yard.

That was the point where I started thinking about this post. And how everything comes in its own time. How we can't control the way and time life throws things (especially all-important things like weedeaters :p) at, or reveals things to, us and how, often, we shouldn't try and should just roll with the punches for a while.

And then tonight. I went outside to move my car in the garage. I saw the neighbour's kid out front. I was trying to figure out what he was doing. He was taking down the Christmas lights. 9:40 pm on a Sunday night in the third week of June. I started wondering what prompted this decision at this time. Then I realized I probably couldn't explain why I do half the things I do when I do them. Like learning the key's purpose, and the weedeater, it must've just been time to take the Christmas lights down. Everything in its own time.

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